New Beginnings & What They Actually Mean


I woke up dancing to my Trey Songz playlist this morning at about 8:45 I’ve waited on this particular moment for almost two years now and it’s finally here. Today marks the last day at my dead end call center job. Whew. That was like letting go of air I had been holding in under water for a very long time. I didn't expect to be as excited as I am because normally I never even allow myself to celebrate my accomplishments. I just accomplish them, keep my head down and go on to the next goal. This I'm proud of, and honestly kind of nervous about too. I guess because I had it set in my mind that I would be with that company for a while. And the more I think about it, I feel like I needed this job in particular to grow. Truth is I got so much more than a (very small, but flexible) paycheck from them.

I gained a love I never experienced and a pain I wouldn’t wish on the worse person I know. I found coworkers turned sisters and my work mommy, both that I will love until pigs fly, all at this same job. Aside from all of that I learned a life skill that will take me further than my mind could think. When I started working there I had only been living in Georgia for a little over a year and I was absolutely against anything involving me going back to Chicago. Being broke was at the top of the Go Home List, so I did what I had to do. Taking this sales job and making it my own was more than enough. I was selling insurance by day and selling cable and internet by night. That hustle showed me my resilience. I hated everything about that job, but I had shit to do.

re·sil·ience

rəˈzilyəns/

noun

  1. the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness.

"the often remarkable resilience of so many British institutions"

So today I stand in the beginning of the end relishing in all that God has for me. Even though I’ve accepted one job already. God has even more up His sleeve and I am so humbled and grateful. I’ve lost and recovered from wounds that would kill even the strongest. This means more to me than any paycheck or romance. I made the first sale of a novel I had been pregnant with since 2011 on June 8,2018. They say “overnight success”, usually takes about 7-8 years, they were correct. But I couldn't be more proud. The hardest part of all of this is making sure that I tied up all loose ends and in turn avoid burning any essential bridges.

I read a lot from Lifestyle blogger Mattie James. She gives me what I need on the regular. She is so successful in this industry and I admire her authenticity. “Whatever your journey is right now, what I can tell you is, to pick what’s best for you. Don’t feel obligated to follow trends or do things like other people. Your career development – even an entrepreneurial endeavor – should start somewhere and be something that holds you accountable and teaches you to do the work.” (https://mattiejames.com/ive-learned-8-years-blogging/) That statement alone is what made me jump. It made me realize that getting where you want to be aint gone be easy. And you will have to do what you have to do, until you can do what you want to do, most of the time. Growth and development are two of the most inevitable, but pain staking pivotal moments in maturation. With 5 more months in this new year, I will be making more money than I ever have and embarking on another independent journey of self.

What will you do with your new start?